I don't have anywhere else to go. It could be said I'm at a last resort. Just read...maybe you'll figure it out, I hope.

8.17.2009

an old friend

Throughout the course of school today, the only thoughts that crossed my mind was, “I’m going to see her today.  I’m gonna tell her exactly what I feel…and then I’m gonna kiss her.”

Who is she?

She’s my ex-girlfriend.  I don’t believe I will ever truly will escape my love for her.  I believe she is my first love and the odds of that dying are extremely slim.  (long story short, haha)

Directly after I had piano lessons I went to her house (it’s in very close proximity to my piano teacher’s house).  As I approached, I saw her mom (who has always liked me) mowing the yard.  I got to the driveway before she saw me, and as soon as she did see me she stopped mowing immediately and came over and gave me a hug and asked how I was doing.  HOW REFRESHING!  It’s kind of difficult to explain how incredible it feels to have a parent of the girl that you are considering dating to hug you and appreciate you after months of being disliked by the parents of a previous, forbidden love.  I can’t really describe what it felt like.  I went inside and watched TV with the girl for like an hour, and just talked and we had some ice cream.  It was really neat.  Just talking.  How I had missed it.  Anyways, I didn’t really follow my plan.  But, it doesn’t really matter.  It was a good day.

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